Being Different

Inspired by the following quote

"they all laugh at me because I'm different and I laugh back at 'em because they are all the same" - 

Stay different !!!

There's something in me that tickles 'em,

There's something about me that maddens 'em,

I know not why it is that they laugh at me,

I know not why it is that they scorn me

I wonder if it's because I'm nothing like 'em,

I wonder whether if its a shame ,

That we are not the same,

I wonder if that's why I always take a blame,

I was not like this before,

Running away from throngs galore,

Gasping for a space

Where I wouldn't be called a 'disgrace'

Stealing away from gazes eager,

To silence an indomitable desire,

Everytime I tried to please

It all ended up with me looking down at my knees 

I've heard it all,

Mocks big and small,

Ridicule has its way with me

I'm independent but never free

I've run out of souls,

Who'd assure to not play foul,

When I empty my heart,

They'll not pierce darts

I move about, lost in fancy,

Where I am beyond the frenzy,

Of having to close the gates

Nor take in nor give shades

When will they stop smothering

When will I escape the bothering

There's no end it would seem,

Even if I've always bid for their team

Why is there no place 

Where I can find someone of my race

Its so hard for me to vent

Is it such a deal to be different ?

                                                                                                  - Anupam