Regret

A thing or two I did in jest
After years I can't lay 'em to rest
They chase me and haunt too
Beneath the endless blue

My mind flies back to memories
Of the careless moments of histories
Things of value never mattered
When they ought to have deterred

Frivolous scars and tears aplenty
I doled out till my heart was empty
Soon I found myself weary
Of the camouflaged misery

The rush receded into a void
Of all the frenzy I became devoid
Then I went somewhere else
And the tears too drained to another place

After centuries I found time
To regret over my guilt sublime
It often pays visit
A flame of hurt is lit

And when I hear me breathing
I become aware of all the hurting
I caused everywhere
Like a soul bereft of care

All the pleadings and pleasings
I reminisce each & everything
So many things I wish I could change
A belated realization is so strange

All the tears I drew
All the sighs I knew
All the pain I hurled
All the hopes I crushed

I wait for my chance to redeem
I expect severance from my whim
Though I ask for forgiveness & mercy
I know that salvation don't come easy